This year

This year has pretty much kept me in "survival mode". I haven't thrived this year. Ive maintained, lost a little weight, but for the most part maintained. No I'm not done. Ive got a ways to go. How do I get out of this mode and into Thrive mode? How do I stop looking for inspiration and be inspirational? The truth is that Ive gotten a little bit whiny a little bit back into the habit of letting life control what I do and how I cope. I know I will be happy when this year is over, however it has taught me that I am not through yet. If life still derails me I'm not in the place I want to be. I feel like Ive made a lot of excuses each week when I weigh in. ..... Its my period week,....it was stressful at work.....my family is killing me. The truth is that if I was healthy and secure as I should be, I should be using all those excuses to fuel my fire. Instead Ive gone into survival mode.
 Now is the time to thrive. Take all the bad and turn it into something I can handle. Turn it into fuel and burn it off at the gym. I'm not going to let myself get lost again. I did that before and hid in an extra 100lbs of yuck. So this year is not over....I am back and I'm going to thrive for the rest of 2010!

Wii Compitition

 So my husband and I have a little friendly competition happening. We are stepping on the wii to see who can lose 10lbs the quickest. Between you and me .... he will probably win. But it will give me a little support over the next few weeks until he gets there. :) He has started riding again. I'm going to get started on my swimming training on Friday. It may be all I do for a while, swimming and strength training and walking. I'm still having heel pain and am procrastinating seeing the Doctor. I keep thinking that if I stay off the foot maybe it will heel on its own. I'm giving myself 2 more weeks and then I will make an appointment with the dreamy foot Doctor.(He reminds me of James Bond...so nice to look at.) I had foot problems a few years back and he made me orthotics. As I lost weight and worked out more I stopped wearing them (my foot problem was better as well) but I did some research online and have diagnosed myself  with Achilles tendinitis. It said that some Docs will have you in orthotics to help. I have been wearing all week and so far I see a little improvement. I'm really nervous of foot issues as they run in my family. 
 Anyhow it would be really awesome to kick his butt in this. He tends to get bored and lose focus so it could work in my favor. (Can you tell he never reads this so I can write all I want moowaah ha ha)

Here we go......Maybe at the end he might smile??? :)

Weekend Overview

Im ok with the way this weekend happened. I made pretty good choices. I have some serious work ahead of me. Im trying to locate my hangups and fix them. Saturday went really well. We did go out to eat but I ordered a Hummus plate.....soooo good. Lots of veggies and some flatbread. We did stop at Trader Joes...that was my downfall. Chocolate caramels and a little bit of Brie. I still did good on Saturday. Sunday however was a different story. I let a few things get to me and finished the Brie for lunch....and had a Java Twix (amazing, by the way) that night for dinner. Not such a great day, but I learned some things. Yes sugar is my crutch. I love it, crave it and really need to put it in its place. I also learned that stress is an emotion that triggers stupid eating. Ok .... I already knew that. But I learned that I have control over how I deal with these things. So next time I will handle differently.
 The week is usually set for me. I have a water routine and food routine. My exercise routine has not been working as planned so Im going to tweek it a little. More on that later.

Pumpkin patch

We went to the pumpkin patch today. The one we usually go to was packed out as the weather was beautiful. We tried out a couple different ones. Spencer is at a friends this weekend so it was just the three of us and Jim Katie and Ava. Here are a few shots from today.

Not sure who's feet these are? Auntie and Audrey have the same taste in boots.(Just so happens Auntie can still fit the kids boots.)

This weekend

 Have you ever looked at yourself and known that you are setting yourself up for dismay. I'm thinking this is a good time to set a goal for my weekend. A short term goal...but a pretty major one for myself. I'm wanting Pizza, Brie and Bread and chocolate caramels....and...and. It seems to me that after a couple good weeks of doing what I need to do, I seem to self sabotage myself. I seem to lose control on the weekends and eat like there is no tomorrow. There is no reason for it. I know it is an issue, so this weekend I set a goal. I'm not saying I'm not going to not have a treat. What I'm saying is that I am going to control myself and make sure I take the time for myself to move my body as well. I start here, I am going to do great this weekend....just watch and see.

Camp Seymore

So Spencer and I spent last week at 5th grade camp. I chaperoned 9 girls in a cabin by night and 15 for learning group. There were7 parents that went along with 3 teachers, a school nurse, and the Principal came for some of the time as well. It was a learning experiance and I am so glad I went.! I was able to learn some great things about nature along with watching the kids and how the interacted with each other. The weather was fantastic. It only rained a little the last day, so no wet cold children to worry about. Ive always known what a great kid Spencer is, but it was pretty cool to see him on his own turf and how many kids truly like him. The teachers were amazing and the Seymore Naturalists really kept the kids interested. It brought many of my 6th grade camp memories back.

The Climbing wall. Out of 15 kids, about 6 of them got to the top. Spencer was one of them. They all were incouraged to make a goal and decide how far they wanted to go. They all tried and did great!

There are three 5th grade classes this year. This is all of them, minus a couple who did not come.

I hope that they are still able to go when Audrey is in the 5th grade. She will have an amazing time!

California Fun

Katie and I went to LA for the weekend. She got schooled and I got tan.....sorta. I went on adventures of my own down to the beach and shopping. I relaxed by the pool and read a book and watched a movie. Best of all I got to spend alot of time with my best friend. I dont think I could have had a more relaxing weekend. Im really glad we got to spend some time together.