Week 3

So as plans go, I'm still ok. I have gotten the outside stuff going, but getting to the gym has proven difficult. I definitely need it though, because yesterday when I ran my upper thigh down to my knee on my left leg are pretty sore . I expect soreness...but this is a little more. I'm thinking I need a little bit more of a warm up before the running, and a little more leg strength and core strength built up. I have a run that I like to see my progress and see how far I can get. Yesterday I was in the zone, and got the furthest yet while running without a lot of tiredness and controlled breathing. The problem is I just jumped right in, I've gotta warm up a little I think.
I will run to the gym today. I know it is not in the schedule, however, I didn't make it yesterday and I really need four days in this week. I'm really gonna focus on my arms. I know that isn't as important as legs and core, but they really bug me. I look at them sometimes and wonder if I've ruined them for good. They never seem to visibly shrink. I know that they are getting smaller.....just not fast enough!
 This week: Ive got my workout schedule. I am also going to make it a goal to have a vegetable with every dinner. This is tough for me, I know it shouldn't be after all this time, but it is. I have a war with veggies. Not really knowing why. Maybe that would be a good thing to figure out. I am also limiting my sugar again. Not really sure why that is an issue still either, but it is my addiction. My comfort. So this week I will remind myself of my goals and push ahead through two of these last eating barriers. They push me to levels of failure I haven't known now for several years. They hold me back from what I want most... rephrase...I hold myself back from what I want most. Its time to push back!

Planning

 I was thinking yesterday about what change means. I know so many people who fight it. I am in the middle. I don't like change, however it is necessary to progress. Change does some amazing things, but also can blockade progress if you let it. I think I have let it. My work schedule changed right about the time that I started taking myself seriously again. I work 7-4 Monday through Thursday now. I love the schedule. I'm home by 4:30 now and able  to be with the kids more in the afternoon. The hangup is that I'm supposed to come home and then leave again to go for a run, or bike ride, or walk and 4-5 days a workout at the gym. However, I wake up at 5am to get ready for work, by the time I'm home from work I'm exhausted especially by Wednesday evening. I was thinking of waking up earlier at 4:30 and running in the morning, however it is still dark and well....maybe not so smart. So what to do?
 I blog for a lot of reasons. I blog so I can keep up with family and friends, I blog to see progress, and I blog to work things out in my head. I see it in black and white and figure out my difficulties. Sometimes I realize I'm just being a whiner, sometimes it is and honest issue and sometimes I'm just making excuses for myself. Sometimes I'm not really sure what it is until I read it later. This time its a combination. I have a legitimate problem, however I am letting it get out of control myself.
 Here is my plan. I am putting it here for accountability. Mon, Tues, run after work. Wed gym for toning, Thurs off day(meeting) Friday(pre Ava), Sat ( preWW) and Sun morning run and early evening gym. Seems like a good plan. Now to keep myself accountable!...off to work!