Reality

So again, when I think I'm being realistic, I realize that I want so much and achieve very little. The 500 miles isn't going to be completed this year. So my goal for this week is 5 solid workouts at the gym. I don't have as much time in the evenings this week as we have Circuit Overseer visit. My solid workouts will include at a minimum 11 miles on the bike, or 4 miles on elliptical, along with 20 minutes of strength training 3 days this week.
 I do have another milestone goal to accomplish as well. As of December 1, I am insured! Yeah! I have worked at the same office for 15 years with no insurance offered. I have had it through my husband, but not for about 2 years. So I am making a physical appt for February and will be lower than my lowest. So that means 15lbs need to be gone. I am not loving my decisions lately. I am not please with my focus. And I am definitely tired of my whining and complaining  and my lack of completion on anything!
 So this month (December), this week, this day, I work on feeling proud of me. I work on caring again!

Slow Start

So I really need to get going here. My goals have been a tad bit on hold. For reason after reason, excuse after excuse, I have taken my time getting motivated. I could say that work has been miserable. I could say that I don't have time, or its been too cold.Truthfully, I have been still totally unmotivated. Ive been thinking a lot about things that need to change. Adjustments that I have made for the good and adjustments I have let slide. I have totally stopped taking care of me. My family loves their mommy/wife time. I cant say that I dislike it either. What I need to do is balance things out again. Take time for me. This last week when I got to the gym, I had my clothes in the car and stopped on my way home. I need to do that more. Im going to be working a few more hours this week, so this week I am going to push myself to go to gym first, so I don't go home first. Once Im home, Im not leaving. The cold has hit and Im bribing myself with the sauna. I get my miles and I get to heat up in the sauna for a few.

I also need to have a charged phone at the gym for my mileage pictures, I do have a day included in my mileage without a photo. 14.2 on level 3/5. . Spencer and I went on a bike ride yesterday. Ignore the time on it. I got home and forgot to turn it off. The mileage is actual though. On the top picture I went another .2 miles after the timer stopped to get a straight 14.

FireFighters

Uncle Jeremy was working at a station near our house. In fact it is the oldest fire house in Washington. He gave us a tour (which i pretty cool, because I used to work down the street, and always have been fasanated with that building) The kids got to put on his gear and slide down the pole and sit in the truck. They had a blast!

                                                 Yes, we got a pose even in heavey gear!

Thank You Uncle Jeremy!

500

What are these numbers? You know the song 500 miles? Well Im gonna move 500 miles before January 1st and these are the first 15. I was going to walk it, but realized that was 9 to 10 miles a day without a break.( I have also set a goal to be a little more realistic about my expectations.) So, I decided that I would add bike riding to the mix. I can ride 11 miles in 45 min, so maybe I can make up some of the miles ahead of schedule. I was considering registering for a run or walk, but the idea of training in the rain or the snow all the time kind of looked ugly to me. I want to do something that will truley be difficult and I can say at the end, that I did something this year that Im proud of. So here I go!
 So Im going to log in all my miles here on the blog every few days, either with a picture like above or by map my fitness(I have the cool app on my phone). I will also be doing a ticker or some kind of mile countdown on the side bar. I have a friend coming over for Audrey this weekend so we have lots of Princess time and playdough time for me to do more planning on it. I am already behind, so I'll be doing alot of walking, running, "500 Miles"!
My Start date is 11/7/11....

New Name

So I read somewhere about blogging and weight loss that the name of your blog defines your style. Someone who names their blog "It happens" might view weight loss as out of their control. Another who names it "WeightBeGone" might think that it is magically going to happen. It might not involve work. Now while I've never felt that about what I've done,  I do think that it is time for some new thinking, something new to get me fired up. To make me think differently. I want to get the rest of this weight off. I am stronger than I think. I let the goal get to me. I made myself into something I wasn't, whatever happened.....I didn't feel like I could ever look the part. I know I can now. If I have worries again I'll jot it down here. I am afraid of who I can be. I don't like to be afraid! Today I'm taking charge of me! Today I put myself first! Today I start becoming proud of me!
 It's going to take work and sweat and tears and help. I have a great support group. My family and especially my friends. I am going to do this. I don't need my WW crutch, I need to believe in me. Something I have never really done before.
I am doing some research on "Peaches".....It might be changed to Buttox... We willl see... :)