Measurements

I guess this is where it gets real... I said I would get measurements up here. So here they are

Weight 215
Size 16
Biceps 16"
Chest 43"
Stomach 42"
Thigh 26.5"
Calf 17.5"
Bleh!.... This is pretty ugly to me. And I am not pleased that I let myself get back up here again. However a few months ago, my high was 225lbs so I seem to have caught myself. I didn't get to walking last week. I got one day at 10,000 steps. However I did track my food this week. On the Lose it App. So I made some progress there. I also am up to 64oz of water a day. So again baby steps....but progress.  This week I am going for the exercise goal that I set last week. I know that is what is going to get me to where I want to be the fastest, and I need to be in moving mode when the rain hits again. I'm considering this my starting picture.

I am looking forward to this journey again. I gained all of this weight at a very dark time. I'm ready to shed the darkness along with the burden of the weight. My ultimate goal is not a size or number. I want to be medication free. And I want to be the best active single mom that I can be!

Wanna Join Me?

Well, I've said it before and I'll say it again. Life is tough. I have new schedules to keep. New horizons to look at. I wonder if I'll feel good about life soon. I am overwhelmed. I have a Ex issues still, money/house disorganization, and I don't feel great in my own skin. Overeating, lack of movement and stress.....all a very bad combination. That being said....I am the happiest I have been in a great many years. And it's time to take control of the things I have the ability to control. I have been rereading this blog and trying to understand my thinking. And what I came up with is that I love my children, and my family very much.  It is time to focus on that and my friends....and myself. I know I keep saying its time, then I get hit upside the head with the stress stick and go to McD's. That however is not making the stress go away! (said with sarcasm).

I have a good friend starting a major weight loss transformation of her own. And Im thinking that I have done this before. I need to do this for me this time. I keep looking backwards and trying to start in the middle. I am at the beginning. And need to start there. I have been walking......sporadically....but walking. This is what needs to happen. I need accountability. I cant afford WW so this is my place. I hope to blog a few times a week.....as a reflection of self, family, and friends. I will be posting beginning pictures and measurements this week. I have been logging my food for the last week on the Lose It app and been upping my water. I'm up to 64 oz most days. This week, I'm going for every day. And 10,000 steps at least 5 days and 3 days to the gym. I know those who still look at this blog will be big supporters. Thanks and feel free to comment and let me know what you think.

Regional Convention

Its that time of year again. And what a program! So many reminders and so much encouragement to keep holding on to Jehovah's hand. It was difficult to leave. :) The three of us got to be together for half of it. I am very grateful. Here is a couple pics!

Memorial 2015

This is the first year the kids have not been with me for the memorial. I have to say....it wasn't the greatest feeling. I did manage to steel them away for a couple Memorial shots. LOVE these kids!

Family

I think the biggest thing I have missed over the past couple years are my pictures. This has been such a big change for all of us and we have been so busy. I have neglected my pictures. These are a few from the past 6 months that I like to remember. Hopefully I will be able to get organized and get on this. I do miss this!

Nobody can say we look nothing alike. This is the first time I see it!

Starting new

My goal now that the blogs are merged is to post at least once a week. Hopefully more as it catches on. I didn't know how tough this new life would be. (It doesn't help that my ex cant get on board with normal)....anyhow. I am starting from square one on this weight loss thing. I am 25lbs below my highest weight and none of my clothes fit. I am not a happy person on the outside.....it is time for the outside to catch up with the inside. I am happy. I am finding myself. and I am more confident than I have been in a long time. I have years of work ahead of me. I am looking forward to it though. I am not so sure about the outside work right now. I reread the blog again....and I think if I push hard I will look forward to the sweat again...right now however it is  a lot of work. Kids work meetings service and now working out. I am going to have to combine some of this. A month ago I started walking. I started at an 18 min mile. I am at 16:45 now. I started weight lifting tonight with my 5lb weights and held a plank for 20 sec (3 intervals). My hope is that by next week I will be at (3) 1 min intervals and a 16 min mile. No mater what I will improve. So here we go...Starting New!

Merged

I have merged my two accounts. Partly for privacy(the Ex) and partly for convenience. I enjoy blogging. But keeping up 2 blogs let alone 1 has proved impossible. So I have merged the two. This one will be my primary family and soon to be back on track with weight loss and running. If you have the other one as a lead into this one I am getting ready to delete the other one. Not too many people read it still. But I went back to the beginning of both blogs and realized that I have done this for myself as much as outside family. I will be redecorating as well. So Hope you enjoy!