3.5

I haven't posted a picture recently so I thought I would update. I had a bad weigh in this week...but have reminded myself that there is more to all this than what the scale is showing. I have been really working hard at the gym and my arms are finally doing some changing, so I am going with muscle is replacing fat....sounds good anyhow. I do like the looks of this pic so I wont get to bummed out about the slight weight gain.
I wanted to see where I was at in my running time, so Spenc and I ran the waterfront this morning. I love that it is flat! 3.5miles in 36minutes. Not fantastic but I am happy. 18 weeks until the Half. On the 13th of March I need to start my 12week training schedule. I want to be up to 5 miles by then. So today I ran in the morning and went to the gym in the evening. Have to say I enjoy running outside much more than on the treadmill.

(Sorry the pic is cloudy, camera was in my pocket during run and got a little fogged up)

Move ahead

I am trying to post a little more often than I used to. I know it does not seem like it. I woke up this morning and went to the gym, yup I was at the gym at 5:45. Fridays are the day I wake up early, clean the house and if I have time go work out or go for a run if I have time. What I usually do is wake up, get on the computer, drink my coffee , look at the clock and realize I have wasted my workout time on the computer and proceed to clean house, just in time for my niece to arrive and then play with her and Audrey until nap time. This morning I skipped the computer and LOVED my morning. I always feel so good when I go and get sweaty. (Note: I think I am becoming addicted to sweat....)
I have been thinking a lot this week about pushing. Why is it so hard to push yourself. Why when I am running do I talk myself into walking? When I first started it was because I couldn't breath, or my legs wouldn't work. Now I have decided it is routine, routine says...there is a hill up ahead, you always stop so when you get there you can walk......routine says....it is Saturday, you have done well all week, you can now eat what you want for today only....routine says on Friday morning....wake up, make mocha, read email, work out(if time permits) and clean house.... I have decided not to let routine prevent me from pushing myself. It is time to change my routine. Change.....(eewww I hate that word) without change, we stay the same. Change doesn't kill, it improves. Change , it moves us forward, it makes us better because when we since a need for change we are telling ourselves that there is more for us, more possibilities, more happiness, and more opportunities. I am in need of change. I heard this week something that I will never forget.
" If your not failing, you are not trying hard enough!" Jillian Michaels
I have had a hard time running since I registered for the Half Marathon. I'm thinking once I start training, I don't get to stop. I was thinking this week that I am over my head that I cant do this.....thing is that is the old me.......
Time for Change!

First Loss Tooth.

Look at my girl. She is missing something, It had been loose for a couple months now. I dont know why but she decided this week to wiggle. I cant believe she lost it so early....

( I love these toothless smiles!)

See Jane Run

See Jane Run Alameda CA
"Registration DetailsConfirmation #:45079435-Date & Time:06/05/10
Location:Crown Memorial State Beach (Map)
Purchased at:01/20/10
Category:Half Marathon
Name:Melissa

Next adventure

So I did it. I am now registered for a Half Marathon. I am nervous and scared and excited and happy. Nervous and scared because ...What the ----- am I doing!!??? Excited because I told myself a year ago that I couldn't even run a mile ( and was told differently) and here I am preparing to run 13.1 miles. Happy because I know that with a lot of work and determination I am setting myself up for success and my family up for success as well. I need to be an example to my little girl and boy, they deserve not to be overweight when older. My son gave me a hug about a year and a half ago and was excited because he could put his arms around me, the other day he did the same and said" Look at all this room I have on the other side, pretty soon I will be able to give you a double hug!" Wow that is enough to make me want to push harder! I want to see what my body is capable of.
If anyone reading this is waiting to lose...dont. If anyone is saying I cant do it....you can. I am nothing special. I still have weight to lose and 45 lbs is a lot to lose. I wish I had gotten started earlier. I wish I hadn't waited. This is fun!

Last Year

I have read a lot about resolutions this year. I have always noticed, always seemed to have a new goal or new direction come January 1. Why? Why wait? It seems to me that goals set on January 1 are almost set for failure. Maybe it is just me..... I hope to others that all theirs goals are attained. I have spent the last few days looking at where I have been. I have been working out and for 2009 I feel glad about what I have accomplished. Do I think I could have done more.....absolutely. But I cant change that, I have to move ahead this year and do what I couldn't get done last year, for whatever reason. I am happy that I can run now. Last year at this time I registered for my first run. I have runs planned but it is not as scary, I know that with hard work and determination, I can do what I set my mind and body to do. I know that with stubbornness I can push my way past defeat. I have 45lbs to go in my weight loss, I wont be finished... I get to maintain and stay healthy. I need to find different ways to keep this exciting and not lapse into not caring.
I have had several tell me that I look good where I am at.... I thank you! It might be harder now to lose the rest when I feel good about what I look like. The last 45 is for my health. What will it feel like to accomplish my goals, what will it feel like to lose Spencer, Audrey and Snickers off my body. How will it feel to go to the Dr and not be told I have weight to lose. How will I feel knowing that I am teaching my children that they don't have to be fat. That it is not just a part of our heritage. All those thoughts and more are what keeps me going. I cant wait to see what I look like.
I am almost there! And I cant wait to see this through for the rest of forever! I have done a little photo journey for last year to remind me what hard work and determination has done for me. Dont wait, dont procrastinate until tomorrow, next week, next month or next year. Nothing comes by waiting, I wish I hadn't waited!

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