Honesty

The truth. It sometimes is a difficult thing to accept. The truth is that I removed this picture from my picture uploads last time I uploaded. Why? I don't like how I look. I know, I will change it. Soon I'll have another shot up here of the person I like better, but for right now, I need to see what I let myself do. No one did this to me. I relaxed. I let go of control. I got involved in other people and things and let myself be ignored.
 Last night on the Biggest Loser, Dolvett said something that I loved. He said : Don't fall in love with this ( what you have accomplished, what you have achieved) fall in love with this( the effort, the exercise, the movement) I fell in love with what I did for myself. I loved how I looked and how I felt, but I didn't love how I got there.
 I have signed up for WW again. I love the control it  gives me. I love being accountable to me and I need to take the time to refocus once a week, on me. I have cancelled the gym for the summer. I have outside activities planned; bike riding, running, walking and climbing(30th street hill 1-2 times a week on my way home). Along with riding scooters with the kids and maybe rollerblading. My fitness goal for this summer is to learn to have fun. I have a 3k planned with my sister in a few weeks, and I am considering the Sound to Narrows again. I would really like some new t-shirts this year.
 The scale is going down finally! So this week I'll hammer down the work outs a little tighter and get the results I want for this week. I'm gonna take care of me, so that I have more to give to my family! That is my motto for this year.