New Goal

So it would seem that I have neglected my goals for the future.  The lose 10lbs in a month and hubbie buys me a new computer was not a success. Good thing since we could not afford a new laptop this month anyhow. I have been neglecting myself and my goals for a while now. My focus has not been where it needs to be. So I am going to make a new goal this month. Rather than focusing on the scale I am going to focus on my health. My BMI right now is 32.0 . I started off about 49.0 so this is a drastic improvement. However I am still in the obese category. My next goal is to get out of the obese and into the overweight group. Saying it that way does not sound so great. However after that is met I will upgrade a tad bit. I used to be almost 50percent body fat..... crazy! Again I wish I was further along, but I have picked up a new weight loss  partner along the way. I am so excited to see her progress. She has mentally pushed me to a new level! I have to say, having a friend doing this with me has been motivating and has helped me reevaluate my progress and goals.
 One more thing. I have officially stepped into size 12 jeans! Yeaaaaa! I don't always understand how even though the scale stays the same how I change sizes! But I feel encouraged to keep going and eventually the scale will catch up too!
Onward and Downward!

Pool Party

It was a big day for the kids today. We went to a pool party. When we got there it was a bout 60 degrees....so cold. But who cares when you are a kid with a pool.....right. They were fine in the water, then the food came and those who ate rushed to get back in the water. I watched several kids walk with their cake in hand shivering so much that the cake almost fell off the plate. Good times!
The sun did come out for us and turned out to be a beautiful party and perfect for water play! This was Ava's first kids party and she had a blast! It was a wading pool, so it was perfect for toddler play. I wont go into what she ate ( but it was good stuff!) but she was in her element in the water.

Oh ya....she scored big on the way out of the party...more candy than she has seen in her short life in one bag! Ohhh Man, is she loving life. She is asleep now and Im thinking it will be a nap of tootsie rolls and chewy jolly ranchers, :)

Smore's

Yup it is that time of the year. I have been wanting a smore for weeks now. So we had family smore night.

Audrey made a mess. She likes her marshmallows warm...barely. This one got a little gooey.

Pool Daze

So the weather around here has not been the best for swimming. However we got a pool day in last weekend. Thank you Katie and Jim and Ava. We had a BLAST!

Ava was awesome today. Fearless....she was showing Audrey what to do in the pool. Dunking, crab walking, floating , jumping! She was amazing! And even better she did it all with a 20lb diaper. :)

Keep doing what your doing....

And you will keep getting what your getting is the definition of insanity. A saying that my husband loves right now. I hear it a lot. Mostly about his work, but also about family. It applies to just about everything. I have heard it so much lately that it has become a little rhyme in my head that I cant get out. So I thought I would put it here. He is not always in the most positive mind frame when he is saying it....but I thought that I could apply to weight loss as well. As I was walking into Starbucks this morning for a pumpkin scone the rhyme was there. Truth is today I ignored the voice. We have a lot of stress going on in our extended family that right now a pumpkin scone became my fixation rather than dealing with the problem at hand. I know, not the proper way to deal with stress....but today that was my choice. I will also make the choice to do an extra hard workout tonight after work. Granted the whole workout will be working off the scone...it will also work off some of the stress that I need to deal with.
You ever wonder what life would be like without stress? Without someone having an opinion about something you are doing wrong. The truth is it doesn't matter what people think. You can take the suggestion or not....but in the long run if it is a negative comment why listen? How does it help you or your health to get so upset that you need to eat or yell or feel bad about who you are. Why allow a person to have that kind of control over you? Easier said than done! I know...I get mad I want sugar...not just a little....a lot. I want cheese.... Truth is I want to fill the hole I am creating because I'm not dealing with the anger and frustration that builds up inside me. In society it is ok to squelch your anger or frustration with food....it is not ok to verbalize. It is not ok to be upset tell someone how you feel. Is it society...or is it genetics...I don't know. What I do know is that for my health I don't want to bottle this in. I don't want to keep quiet and go with the flow. I know that I need to be supportive, I know that I need to be helpful . I can do this and learn to find other ways to express myself. I can protect myself and my own. If you keep doing what your doing...you keep getting what your getting. Why not change?

Marathoners

My big brother and sis in law ran the San Fransisco marathon today! I am so proud of both of them. They have both lost an amazing amount of weight. And gone from couch potato's to athlete, with an amazing amount of work! When I am having a tough time with my exercise and don't think I can accomplish my goals I look at them and their progress and know that they did it, are doing it! This is their third marathon. Amazing! You two are incredible!

School Shopping

Yup, My little girl is starting Kindergarten in a month. How did this happen? I thought I was ready for this, but have realized that I am a little sad time is going so fast. We bought school supplies and of course a backpack. She was so excited for this. It was fun to see her so big trying to read the list and pick out her things. This next month I plan to get ready for school, but also enjoy my little girl!