First Loss Tooth.

Look at my girl. She is missing something, It had been loose for a couple months now. I dont know why but she decided this week to wiggle. I cant believe she lost it so early....

( I love these toothless smiles!)

See Jane Run

See Jane Run Alameda CA
"Registration DetailsConfirmation #:45079435-Date & Time:06/05/10
Location:Crown Memorial State Beach (Map)
Purchased at:01/20/10
Category:Half Marathon
Name:Melissa

Next adventure

So I did it. I am now registered for a Half Marathon. I am nervous and scared and excited and happy. Nervous and scared because ...What the ----- am I doing!!??? Excited because I told myself a year ago that I couldn't even run a mile ( and was told differently) and here I am preparing to run 13.1 miles. Happy because I know that with a lot of work and determination I am setting myself up for success and my family up for success as well. I need to be an example to my little girl and boy, they deserve not to be overweight when older. My son gave me a hug about a year and a half ago and was excited because he could put his arms around me, the other day he did the same and said" Look at all this room I have on the other side, pretty soon I will be able to give you a double hug!" Wow that is enough to make me want to push harder! I want to see what my body is capable of.
If anyone reading this is waiting to lose...dont. If anyone is saying I cant do it....you can. I am nothing special. I still have weight to lose and 45 lbs is a lot to lose. I wish I had gotten started earlier. I wish I hadn't waited. This is fun!

Last Year

I have read a lot about resolutions this year. I have always noticed, always seemed to have a new goal or new direction come January 1. Why? Why wait? It seems to me that goals set on January 1 are almost set for failure. Maybe it is just me..... I hope to others that all theirs goals are attained. I have spent the last few days looking at where I have been. I have been working out and for 2009 I feel glad about what I have accomplished. Do I think I could have done more.....absolutely. But I cant change that, I have to move ahead this year and do what I couldn't get done last year, for whatever reason. I am happy that I can run now. Last year at this time I registered for my first run. I have runs planned but it is not as scary, I know that with hard work and determination, I can do what I set my mind and body to do. I know that with stubbornness I can push my way past defeat. I have 45lbs to go in my weight loss, I wont be finished... I get to maintain and stay healthy. I need to find different ways to keep this exciting and not lapse into not caring.
I have had several tell me that I look good where I am at.... I thank you! It might be harder now to lose the rest when I feel good about what I look like. The last 45 is for my health. What will it feel like to accomplish my goals, what will it feel like to lose Spencer, Audrey and Snickers off my body. How will it feel to go to the Dr and not be told I have weight to lose. How will I feel knowing that I am teaching my children that they don't have to be fat. That it is not just a part of our heritage. All those thoughts and more are what keeps me going. I cant wait to see what I look like.
I am almost there! And I cant wait to see this through for the rest of forever! I have done a little photo journey for last year to remind me what hard work and determination has done for me. Dont wait, dont procrastinate until tomorrow, next week, next month or next year. Nothing comes by waiting, I wish I hadn't waited!

Photo Sharing - Video Sharing - Photo Printing

Growing

So Audrey is going though a growth spurt....I think. This sandwich that she is eating is number two. I wont list everything else but I cant keep enough oranges, apples or B-Nana's in the house.
On a different note Spencer has Strep throat . He gets to start his winter break a few days early. It will be fun to have them at home for two weeks!

Accountability

So I have been so busy with life that I have stepped away from the blogging. The thing is I need to have some accountability to myself. I know I have my weekly WW meetings to keep me going, but there is something about writing about what goes through my head as I am running. Or what goes through my head as I talk myself out of not running.
Part of this exercise has been about opening myself up. Admitting failure and moving past it, celebrating accomplishments, and watching progress. I kind of lost my focus a little. I am still running, but need to push past my own set limitations. So this next year that is my goal. I have accomplished so much this past year for myself, I also know I have so far to go. I hope my ramblings help me further along the way.