New Look

I have been thinking a lot about this blog lately. I almost deleted it. I think I have lost the meaning of what I was doing with it when I started it. I love my family, my friends, and my work but I havn't given myself the courtesy to love myself. I wonder at what point a person says to themselves that they are not important enough to take care of herself. I wonder at what point in my life did I say that about myself.
When it comes to weight loss I do it. I get on my case, I tell myself that I cant do things or rather that I don't want to. I chew myself out if I have a bad eating day. I say things to myself that I would never say to anyone else especially my best friend. This is what is holding me back from something great. Ever wonder what would happen to our friends if we said all the negative things to them that we say to ourselves. How to fix it?
I am choosing to help myself. I can do wonderful things. I am a great friend to have. I need to be that great friend to myself. I will put myself ahead of my stress at work. I am not a strong mother if I do not take care of myself. I need to love myself and the things that I am doing for myself.
This is difficult stuff for me and putting it out here for all to see is a big thing. I am opening myself up and it is very uncomfortable for me. I hear uncomfortable is a good place to be...we will see!

My son

As a mom I hope some day my boy will grow up to be a loving man. I hope that he will choose to love someone with his whole heart. I hope that I have done all I can to show him what love is and what it means. That a simple gesture can make your heart swell with pride and adoration. That reaching out to others while sometimes getting hurt is the only way to receive love.
My son bought me flowers. He did it without being prompted. He did it to see me smile. The joy in his face I will never forget! The pride in my heart can not be erased.

Visitor

Remy came to play this morning. All three of them are fighting nasty colds. Audrey earned her fist dollar for babysitting today. She watched them while I cooked breakfast for all. She did great!

Memorial

This year our memorial was at 9pm. Audrey has been going to bed at 7 all week. She was not a happy little girl by the end, so pictures will tell. Oh well they both looked great and Spencer was so happy he got to pass the bread and wine.

What is this...

1.4 miles...I did it! Amazing!

Day at the Zoo

We now have a yarly membership at the zoo. This was my last day off, I go back to work tomorrow. We spent the morning at the zoo while Spencer was at school.(He was not pleased!) We had a great day.

Library Time

Spring break, we spent the morning at the library. Note to self....remove Ava's squeeky shoes before entering library. We got a lot of smiles and maybe a few of grumpy looks. Oh well!